i am full of regrets now.

i knew there is gonna be a 2days event this coming fri and sat.
i asked my manager's big boss last wed if im needed.
i didnt like talking to her.
but cos my manager is on long leave,
i had no choice.

when i asked if im needed,
her reply was "dont because of work and neglect ur studies.
if u can help out in the event,
definitely (my manager's name),
i mean,
definitely we will be more than pleased."

it may sound that she is concerned for my studies.
but,
the msg i received was another.
it gives me an impression that I AM A $MONEY$ FACE!

i was so angry!

in the end,
i didnt crash timetable.
and i even changed my dental appt from initial today to this fri.
so as to MAKE SURE i wont be available for this friday!

my manager is back today.
he asked me if im available this fri.
i told him NO.
his expression changed immediately.
from hopeful to hopeless!

at this instant,
i felt so bad.
i could have helped him since he treated me well enough so far.

but because of his absence,
and the tone used by his big boss,
i made my decision.

and further to this,
his big boss asked me this "when is ur sch term until?"
ade: until feb.
bb: do u have any friends studying part-time?
ade: no.
bb: oh. i will need pple from sep-jan. afternoons only.
if u have any friends wanna work, let me know.

wat does this mean?
means she don wan me la!
the sight of her makes me puke!