thanks amanda!

hopefully last night's call will be the last (which obviously isnt sth i want)...
what the shit am i talking abt?
want and dont want?
so is want or dont want?
HUH?
I DONNOE!

was turning in bed last nite.
kept thinking.
izzit cos i am sick, tts why i am feeling this way? or...?

i am not sure.
and i dont think theres a need to find an answer to it.
its just a waste of time and making my heart ache a little more.
what do i gain?
nothing!